Dear Father, I hope I've healed proper
Hope the scars you left won't touch salt water
And the grudge in my heart no longer spread far
Prayin' for the days we get through dinner with no problems
It's hard not to put the blame on you
Every day I'm afraid that I'm the same as you
Maybe it's cope thinkin' I'll do better
But the family gene, the rage, I know it came from you
The best and the worst, I'm doomed to inherit
The love and the hate make the perfect parents
And you tried your best, that much I'll admit it
But when you at your worst, well, that's family business
Family business
Well, that's family business
Family business
Well, that's family business
Family business
And my culture tell me I should be grateful
Common practice of shamin', they call it bein' playful
Feel the weight of disgrace and the disappointin' gazes
Under the facade of they fake appraises, I know they hateful
I tell myself I'll be better
Tell myself I'll never say the same shit that you had said to us, either
Never tell my kids to go die in a ditch or wherever
Never tell my kids they trash 'cause they fell out, whatever
And granted, I know that life was never easy for you
I understand trauma left you with no peace in your mood
Deceivin', rage bleed in everythin' that you do
Your father passed before you could be at peace with him too
I know, I tell myself I'll be better
I tell myself that, but I feel your rage in my veins when I'm fed up
Starin' at the mirror, see the exact same errors
And every time I seem to fail, all I feel is embarrassed
And they tell me that you changed, that you grew 'cause of age
But I'm cynical, I'm knowin' that deep down you the same
'Cause I be hearin' how you speak about your daughter to shame
Even though she doin' great, I hear the same type of hate
Daddy issues, I guess I can't help it
Tell myself I'm better, really I am just as selfish
Only focused on where my wealth is
It's funny, now I'm grown, you say that money can't replace your health
But as a kid, you had told me get all my shit
Hustled every single dollar, and it goes down to the cent
And maybe you had forgot, but I could never forget
Every single time you told me to go die in a ditch
Now I'm 'posed to get through it and let it go?
Forgiveness is a pill I can' swallow, I tend to choke
I'm petty and sensitive, part of the family though
Where did I get it from? Bet you already know
And I should be thankin' you, you why they lovin' me
You my role model 'cause you who I don't wanna be
But I can't let you go, no matter how good it seems
Family is everythin' even if it is burnin' me
Family is everythin' even if that family tree
Echoes of our trauma passin' down with the family gene
Suffocate our feelings, replace it with animosity
Never stay the victim, we stow it because we gotta be
On the plate of illness, can't show the pain that be plaguin' me
Even if it's death, our last breath ain't complacency
Even if it's love, it ain't enough, that's just make believe
Even at the end, can't show 'em how much the pain it stings
Just like us
The best and the worst, I'm doomed to inherit
The love and the hate make the perfect parents
And you tried your best, that much I'll admit it
But when you at your worst, well, that's family business
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