Another year around the sun in search of
Anything to pacify the numbing belief
That irrespective of how our time was spent
Or what solace we were graced by friends
It all amounted to nothing in the end
You'd always watch me as I'd ideate
Diazepam and dulling ache
Open eyed, I stare at the mirror and drive my teeth straight through my tongue
It's so torpefying knowing that one day your life will be forgotten
In the spaces between my discomfort and grief
I had nothing to offer to help you to sleep
No question ever conjured up enough detail to reconstruct
The trust that you felt I had broken; shallow cuts for doubt to soak in
Now I don't think of you in apathy (You'd always watch me as I'd ideate)
Now I don't think of you in apathy
Now I don't think of you in apathy (Diazepam and dulling ache)
I don't think of you at all
Open eyed, I stare at the mirror and drive my teeth straight through my tongue
It's so torpefying knowing that one day your life will be forgotten
And I can't help but feel like I'm to blame
But if it hurt that much then why did you stay?
In the spaces between my discomfort and grief
I had nothing to offer to help your sleep
Surrender to bed, silk scarves at the wrists
An apostle for malediction
Yarn for the tapestry, woven in anger
Rage for the sake of it, stuck on repeat
No heaven ever equal to your skin, but no Hell like the wrath that lay beneath
Open eyed, I stare at the mirror and drive my teeth straight through my tongue
It's so torpefying knowing that one day your life will be forgotten
You'll be forgotten
But if it hurt so much then why did you stay?
But if it hurt so much then why did you stay?
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