And I'll be speaking to the page, it knows my soul
And I'll admit that I'm afraid that I've gone cold
And I'm a prisoner in my brain, my only hope
If I could do my time again, I'd still stay strong
I have a conversation with my diary when I'm stressed out
Been flicking through the pages, now my biro needs a rest
And if I catch back my mind to all the people that feel let down
They let me down first, and betrayal gets me vexed
You feel it in your chest when you're living with regrets
On the nights I never slept, tryna fight for my respect
I'm becoming nocturnal, I should really get my head down
Feel drained like a vampire's bitten on my neck
I'm still waiting for a couple of my dreams to manifest
Though I can't deny the progression, I'm deep here and I'm blessed
Where I come from if you're smiling with your heart on your sleeve
The leeches will creep in and leave you weeping in a vest
I don't think they can relate to the loneliness I'm feeling
When your old friends are villains and your family's just a mess
I still struggle to admit I'm broken and I'm slowly healing
I let my pen bleed onto the page until it's red
I was treated like a duck so I started people pleasing
The street became my home and my life had me depressed
But when you elevate and you're breaking through the ceiling
You see that all your friends when they're grabbing on your leg
I've been speaking to the lord cause right now I really need him
Every night I'm praying at the bottom of my bed
And I can see I'm in a cycle and I'm watching it repeating
The pages of my diary are my only real friends
And I'll be speaking to the page, it knows my soul
And I'll admit that I'm afraid that I've gone cold
And I'm a prisoner in my brain, my only hope
If I could do my time again, I'd still stay strong
I have a deep discussion with my diary when I'm hurting
I find it therapeutic, it relieves me of my pain
And I made a few mistakes I gotta live with, that's for certain
Sacrifice gets heavy when you're trying to play the game
And when you're trying to reach the mountain top, you really have to change
But then they say you've changed, and that plays with your brain
And I just know the way we're living at the bottom isn't working
Or it seems to be your family that are quick to violate
Or it seems to be the so-called real that are fake
You would have to see it with your own eyes to know the nature of a snake
It's like I'm running out of love when it's concerning
I have to stay calm but there's no one else to blame
Well they let us into heaven or reject us at the gate
And maybe it's just hell on earth forever till the day we see the grave
And if you're walking through the hood you smell the burning
People get lost between the smoke and the flames
I know I'm on the brink of something special like I'm feeling
And then it's like I lose sight of the vision and it's strange
Forgive me I'm just writing in my diary if they read it
Well they say that I'm insecure, I'm going through a phase
I've been speaking to the lord cause right now I really need it
Every night I drop onto my knees and I just praise, like I'm going through a cycle
And I'm watching it repeating, the pages of my diary are my only real mason
And I'll be speaking to the page, it knows my soul
And I'll admit that I'm afraid that I've gone cold
And I'm a prisoner in my brain, my only hope
If I could do my time again, I'd still stay strong
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